As of November 13, I resigned my position in Dispatch at the Anaheim Police Department (CA). Since January 2004, my primary responsibility has been answering 9-1-1 calls. On Halloween, I handled a suicide by gunshot incident, my second one within the year. Since then, I have been off work because I hear their voices in my head. After much thought, consideration, and prayer, I made the decision to resign because I do not want to do it anymore. My family, friends, coworkers, and the department have been very supportive over the last three weeks. I have served the City of Anaheim in different capacities since May 2002 and I am most grateful for all of those years, but it is time for a change and I must now exit with my head held high. I will chronicle more of my journey later. Thank you for your patience and support. To all those still serving: you are all in my thoughts… stay the course and carry on the good work.